Thirteen days later for Three Brothers
Nov. 25th, 2008 01:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Thirteen days after landing in SFO with a headache and a single carry on bag, I feel I'm getting better.
I've been out and about rejoining life as best I can, so yes, that guy around SF with the beard and the occasional smile is indeed me (unless he's my double - uh, save that for another time). The biggest challenge in the last couple of weeks has been concentration on my part, whether it's a job project or some errand. When I'm working on something, I'm there, then I'm not...I'm 3,000 miles away. The choppy sleep nights have not been helping. I have even taken to forcing myself to nap, once and awhile (strange for me). Close friends have been nothing short of wonderful; understanding and supportive.
My mother is back in New York, leaving Puerto Rico, for the time being. As he promised, my brother Dave (who lives here in Alameda) has flown back and will stay with her for at least a month or so and definitely through, what will be a difficult holiday season. My youngest brother Kevin is there also and is already fielding questions as to why he did not go to P.R. for the service and burial. the question was put to me at least 10 different times from 10 different people.
Dave and I have done our best with this question and have expanded on his: "I'm not sure I can handle it" answer. My feeling on this has been, okay, you can't handle it, you can't handle it but I pulled him aside and said: "then you need to make sure you're there for here when she gets back." And admittedly, I was not going to P.R. initially, I said goodbye to Tony Sr in that hospital room. But I went back to that crazy tiny island in the Carribean for my mother. I was hurting but it had to be done. My hope is that Kevin doesn't get to a point , that he regrets not being there. Dave and I will field this ground ball, when and if the time ever comes. Dave actually had the best response about Kev not coming to the island, "Tony, Kev is young and has not been beaten up at all by life." I nodded, "Well, I think he's taking his first left-hook."
