Officially old now

Jan. 31st, 2026 08:10 am
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 On Thursday I went to the optomitrist and got the explanation for why the world has gotten a bit more blurry.  I've been uncomfortable with how I can't see signs when I'm driving even with my glasses.  My last eye exam was a year and a half ago but I've never had much happening that required me to have annuals.  But in the last year and a half I've developed cataracts.  My right eye is especially blurry and that's been the good one all my life.  

So I made an appointment for a consult.  The eye guy that my optomitrist trusts is so busy the consult isn't until the end of March.  But no real hurry here.  She told me to not buy glasses as I'll be getting the lasik.  

I've been wearing glasses or contacts for most of my life.  While I've been able to go without them I wear them when driving or going to the movies or that kind of thing.

The biggest difference with be sunglasses.  I wear them whenever I go outside.  Always.  I've always been concerned about sun damage and really hate bright light so I've had prescription sunglasses at hand for as long as I can remember.  I had a very expensive pair of Oakleys that I wore for probably 8 years.  I've not worn regular sunglasses, non prescription, since I was a kid.  Shopping in a non prescription store will be interesting.  Since pickleball is inside now days that won't be an issue but walking outside and driving will be very different.

That isn't the only reason I'm feeling old.  I can really tell a difference in my loss of muscle mass.  It has been noticible to me since my last hip surgery.  Prior to that I couldn't do much of anything and was walking with a cane.  My recovery was fine but it ended up with me not doing any real muscle building work for five or six months and at my age that is real muscle loss from which it is very difficult to recover.

Last Tuesday I worked for an hour at the dog shelter scrubbing and swabbing down the cages.  Hard work.  Then I shoveled for a bit in our drive making a path that my car could use in our drive.  I was so sore from that it was hard to move.  Then I played pickleball yesterday on not enough sleep getting up at a quarter to six to meet up with someone to do some ball machine training.  Then we played a couple of hours after that.  I slept over 10 and a half hours of deep sleep last night and only now feel like I've gotten over Tueaday.

I really need to do more muscle work.  Pushups.  Upper body work.  And some more knee strengthening.  


Fashion, Brenda!

Jan. 13th, 2026 11:00 pm
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A day off today, and as usual, I'm still struggling to find any reason to get up and out of bed... even with the plethora of tasks and chores that will keep me busy and occupied.

Managed to drag myself out of bed, and thought I'd try on one of my new Culture Kings clothing purchases. This is a XXIII sweater... I bought an XL because when they state "Normal Fit", it's normally what I need, as I'm fairly tall, but definitely overweight. And this cardigan / sweater fits nicely over my shoulders, but seems rather long... So I have to be mindful of what to wear it with so it doesn't look silly... or wear it in a way that makes it look shorter than it actually is.

I never return any of the clothing that I buy, because it's normally bought at quite a discount, and if I don't like it, I can always try selling it on eBay, or even giving it to someone. And the returns process is just too cumbersome for me to do - especially finding the time to drop something off at the Post Office. I'm normally asleep or at work.

And... didn't really do much else today.


New top

Does this cardy make my bum look big?

Just work

Jan. 12th, 2026 11:00 pm
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Nothing else in iCal.
No photos.

Nothing else of interest.

Started work at 4.32pm this arvo.

Of course, the plethora of Safari browser tabs open on various devices could be written about here, but... it's late January, and I'm still trying to catch up on LiveJournal / Dreamwidth entries. Thank goodness for a standby shift!

Let's go!

Jan. 11th, 2026 11:00 pm
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Started work at 5.57pm today... But being summer, it's still light until around 8.00pm. My least favourite day of the year has passed - the summer solstice. It's all downhill from here...

Nothing else of any interest, so here's a reversed selfie I sent a friend. (I need to look at the WhatsApp photo settings!)



Pre-departure selfie

Let's go!

A quick catch up

Jan. 10th, 2026 11:00 pm
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The boys were in town from San Francisco... but they don't really want anything on social media, so I won't name them, or post a photo... sadly.

I missed them on their last trip, and I do also think they wanted to catch up with me at other times too, for some... extra-curricular activities, if you know what I mean. But I still have such anxiety around that because of my body image issues, as well as the condition I developed after my 2 COVID vaccinations... *sigh*

So I came in and met them at 3.00pm, and we had a lovely late lunch / early dinner at Capitol Thai, before I headed off to work for my 4.67pm start.

I ordered some Waterdrop tablets online because they were having a decent sale, and you could get their "Taster Packs" (a pack of 6 different flavours) at a decent price. I do drink water when I'm at work, but probably should drink more - and reduce my Pepsi Max intake. And certainly should drink more water at home as well!




Trying these out

Make me moist(er)!

The Temple of More Men?

Jan. 9th, 2026 11:00 pm
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I remember YEARS ago, when the Sydney Gay & Lesbian Mardi Gras parade wasn't so ridiculously politicised and full of uber-left leaning socialist Uni students practicing their woke-ness...

And we had floats like The Temple of More Men and the Tab of Acid choir. So fun. So camp. Similar to the large group of VERY muscular men marching in red swimsuits and high heels, after the furore around the Chinese women's swimming team in the Olympics looking rather... steroid enhanced.

Anyway, had today off work, and it was a lazy day until I headed in to the city to meet Brian for dinner at the Great Southern Hotel. A nice schintzel for me, and a prawn and mango salad for Brian. And a couple of mojitos for him, and a delicious coconut margarita for me. Deeeeeeelicious!

Brian had never seen the stage musical, "The Book of Mormon", and neither had I. And they had an offer on for school holidays / Xmas / New Year slow period seats, for just AUD$89 per person, so it was Brian's treat. (And I bought dinner and drinks...).

It was at the Capitol Theatre, which is a beautiful old restored theatre. The show was fun - and quite naughty. In fact, I'm sure that the parts about raping babies to prevent AIDS, and General Buttfucker caused a few gasps from some people in the audience. But the main performers were good, although sometimes, the sound mix made it hard to hear some of the lyrics. Loved the staging though...

Afterwards, I walked Brian back to his current accomodation, then walked back to Central to catch a train to Redfern, grab my car, and then head home.




The Book of Mormon

Brian and our cocktails




The Book of Mormon

The stage is set




The Book of Mormon

Such an opulent theatre

Yawn

Jan. 8th, 2026 11:00 pm
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I'm catching up on posts, and writing this on the last day of January... and I'm on standby at work, so don't have my work diary with me, where I fill out my final hours after shifts have been finished.

I've had a bit of sick leave lately (mainly mental health days), so can't remember whether I did start work today at 4.00pm, or actually go sick.

Regardless, there's nothing else in iCal and no photos, so this will be a boring post.

Serious Dom

Jan. 7th, 2026 11:00 pm
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Started work at 4.32pm today.

No photos, or nothing in iCal, so here's one from yesterday, in the yard at Mount Victoria. After my wonky eyes had returned to normal, of course!



I look so serious!

Serious Dom is... serious!

Wonky eyes!

Jan. 6th, 2026 11:00 pm
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A ha! Here it is... I wrote a few weeks ago about an eye appointment, thinking it was the day I came to work with wonky eyes, but I then edited it as it was the day where I went sick.

So it was TODAY that I had my last ophthalmologist appointment at Bankstown Hospital today at 1.00pm. The doctor (Daniel) was lovely as always, and after putting the drops in ONE eye, examined me, and was satisfied that the laser had created enough scar tissue to prevent any possibly further retinal tearing. So it was a quick in and out, and then I headed to work.

Of course, because the dilating drops were only in the affected eye, I ended up with a normal pupil and a VERY dilated pupil. It was very amusing to show work colleagues when I arrived for my shift starting at 4.14pm. Thank goodness I had my sunglasses!



Wonky eyes

I
look crazier than I normally am!

Rolling along...

Jan. 5th, 2026 11:00 pm
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Just a 4.36pm start today.

I have a selfie.

I think I sent it to a gentleman I spoke to at Bears yesterday. He was quite lovely. I asked if I could add him on Facebook. He agreed. And then after messaging, we swapped numbers.

You know that spooky "connection" thing that happens? It hasn't happened for a long time. But I saw this man, and asked someone about him. I felt "drawn" to his incredibly kind looking face. And then he came up to speak to ME!

And get this. Although he's 4 years older than I, his day and month of birth is exactly the same as mine! How spooky is that!!!?

We shall hopefully catch up some time soon...



Waiting to depart

Let's go! (But I'll put my phone away first!)

I wish I'd been brave...

Jan. 4th, 2026 11:00 pm
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I used to follow a Flickr page that was a straight man and his Japanese wife, and they used to post some amazing pictures. Mainly of Australian beaches and bush scenery, as well as off Japan.

But they are nudists, and would often post photos of themselves. But the account disappeared about 18 months ago.

And the gentleman is a guy who I would say is of similar age to me, but he has what I would consider a perfect body. Nicely proportioned, not overly muscular, but certainly nice, and he has a small tightly cropped goatee, and a beautiful hairy chest and belly. And of course, posts many pictures of himself, bushwalking naked.

I actually found him on BlueSky, in which he crossposts from his Mastodon account.

He's in to Zen Buddhism, and incorporates this in to his naturism, and the acceptance of the naked body of all shapes, sizes, abilities, gender, etc.

He made a post that he would be hosting a naked bushwalk today, so I put a reminder in my iCal to go.

But I didn't.

Because even though it would be a good test for me to get over my body image issues (because I just sadly hate my body, and my shape (or lack of it)), I would feel so "hideous" next to him (and possible other attendees). And I had the day off work today, so it was the perfect opportunity.

But I actually got quite burnt on my head after being out and about with Nigel yesterday, and didn't want to get burned any more (although I could have worn a cap, and slathered myself with sunscreen). If he posts again that he'll host another bushwalk, I'll try to go. But I really dislike how I have a "potato" torso, and skinny non-muscular "tuber" arms... And I'd probably feel uncomfortable in my head, and then get distressed. But I need to challenge myself.

The other worrying thing is that I do actually think he is VERY attractive - but he constantly posts about non-sexual naturism and nudity, and I'd be worried that I might... get... a little lecherous or even possibly aroused in his presence. Maybe he'd tolerate that because it's just a natural human reaction. Who knows?

But... I didn't go.

But I DID end up going to Bears at the Town Hall Hotel with Craige. And Seumas was there too! And we managed to take a photo of myself, Craige, Seumas and Clinton - the original Bears In The City podcasters - just missing John. So we sent him a picture with a gap in the middle, telling him that he should be there! LOL

I'm glad I went. It was a nice social event to help me negate the disappointment of earlier. Even though being social exhausts me, because I do have to put my "happy face" on...

I drove Craige back to his place, and we just had some leftovers for dinner, and chatted with Oz, and watched a bit of telly, before I headed home.




At Bears at the Town Hall Hotel

The original Bears In The City podcast crew... We're just missing John!



At Bears at the Town Hall Hotel

With Alan, from Canada

Almost 35 years!

Jan. 3rd, 2026 11:00 pm
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Not long after I moved to Australia, I remember being out on Oxford Street one night, and meeting a lovely gentleman. (I think it was the Exchange Hotel, which no longer exists...)

Of course, one thing led to another, and we "spent some time together", and then on the next day or two, I showed him some of the sights of Sydney, including around the harbour and Opera House, and over to Taronga Zoo.

Back in those days, the only way to stay in touch with people was by landlines and writing letters, although email didn't come much later. And slowly, we lost contact. Although he's English, he lives in Berlin, Germany.

But around 15 years ago, through the power of the internet, we got back in contact.

Now Nigel HAD been to Australia again - not long after his first trip, in 1994. But hadn't been back since then - until now!

So we HAD to catch up.

I'd gone from twink to Bear, and he had turned in to a Daddy Bear! (And has been quite relishing that for some time).

So we met at Circular Quay, and spent quite a few Horus wandering around Farm Cove, the Royal Botanic Gardens, Circular Quay, and surrounds. And talked and talked and talked and talked... About our lives, relationships, ups and downs.

Because of his job as a musician (quite a prestigious one actually), he has travelled extensively around the world, including to some rather exotic locations, and therefore met some lovely men. He had a partner for some time, who sadly died a number of years ago (at the tender age of only 54), which did throw him in to a deep depression. But he has bounced back, and he seems to have quite an amazing life. He now actually rewrites symphony orchestra scores for smaller chamber orchestras, amongst many things. Oh to be so musically gifted!

All in all, we probably spent around 6 hours catching up, before I drove him over to Paddington for his dinner with the people he had been staying with. (Cousins, nieces, etc.)

A long overdue catch up. And a lovely day. (Which thankfully, was a day off work!)




Catching up with Nigel

Myself and Nigel



Catching up with Nigel

Nigel and the harbour



Catching up with Nigel

It was a VERY busy day...




Catching up with Nigel

Circular Quay looking lovely...

A late shift...

Jan. 2nd, 2026 11:00 pm
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Not much to talk about for today.

Started at 6.00pm for a late shift tonight. So that meant I didn't need to be out of bed too early. Which of courser, I wouldn't have been regardless of whether I was working or not.

No photos to put in this post.

Nothing else in iCal.

But tomorrow will be a different story, as you will soon find out.

Morning's activity

Jan. 28th, 2026 09:22 am
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Helped bring this dog down to be on the air.

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It is still slick anywhere that the sun hasn't hit. Our house faces north so we get very little sun on our drive. I had an appointment to volunteer at the dog shelter and so took out the car. I nudged it forward until it started to slide down the hill then just tapped the eccellerator and rolled out to where it was dry and I could get control. It was 'fairly' safe and definitely fun. The tires didn't even leave a dent in the ice on the drive. Nor did they leave a dent when I tried to back up the drive. I almost made it when the car started to spin and drift right where it would have either slid off or hit the side of the garage. At that point I put it in neutral and rolled back down. I tried three more times and never quite made it. I was within a foot of hitting concrete and traction but that was not enough. So here is our current condition:

Screenshot 2026-01-27 12.09.59

I'm going to stay down there until the drive gets maybe a little slushy and then try it again. I don't want to leave the car down there. So I'll figure it out. Later.

Meanwhile I went to the dog shelter to meet with someone and start a new volunteer job, intaking new dogs. They need someone to help calm and manage new dogs that are just starting out. I thought it might be up my alley and have been trying to connect up with the woman in charge but she didn't show this morning (icey road delay) so I helped at the kennel. Dog walk and then put in a separate crate so the one where they spent the night can be washed out and bedding replaced. It is the first thing every morning and it is really hard. So I put in an hour. One dog was really jumpy and pulled me at the wrong time and I went down. Thank you Pickleball, I was fine. Nothing hurt. No one was watching. The dog laughed but was a good sport about it.

Another dog bit me when I tried to put a coller on him. He didn't have much for teeth so it was not much of a bite. Work with dogs, get bit. It's the norm. I'm used to it. He was just scared and didn't mean anything by it.

So, an eventful morning. I'm taking our two dogs out for the first walk they've had in three days. Hopefully it will go better.

It's getting a bit ridiculous...

Jan. 27th, 2026 09:00 pm
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123 open Safari browser tabs open on my MacBook Air

302 open Safari browser tabs open on my iPhone

106 open Safari browser tabs open on my Mac

Plus a number of "Notes" from the years where I transferred all the links to "come back to" at some point in time.  Some are probably so old and outdated that they don't exist any more.

This is RIDICULOUS OCD, is it not!!!?

Mein Gott!

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I'm looking out front on our camera and the street looks to be solid ice. A few years ago I'd have gone out to take pictures but I'm not sure enough of my own abilities to stay up on that kind of surface. There are no cars at all. The whole area is silent and motionless but for the trees blowing a bit in the wind.
The temp on my phone says 17 degrees with a wind chill of 5 degrees.
The dogs have not been out yet but will have to do so soon. Fortunately the sun hits our back yard more than the front so they will have access.

Yesterday Beaux was out in the sub freezing afternoon and doing his thing in the back yard when he suddenly started towards one of the bushes in the back of our back yard up by the fence. He went right into it and was doing his dachshund thing when suddenly a rat ran out the back towards and then through the fence. A moment later a second one did the same. Beaux snuffled around a bit more and then worked his way back down the snow covered slope having done his job.

Toby had been nosing around up there a bit and now we know why. Both got a post vermin clearing treat.

The whole family

Jan. 25th, 2026 08:17 pm
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Watching the game.

Pickleball in peril

Jan. 25th, 2026 12:13 pm
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I'm thinking they are going to cancel PB for tomorrow. It is closed today which is no surprise. But the temp is not going above freezing until Tuesday so what is ice now will be ice tomorrow and the roads here in the development are very icy. The sun will melt just enough for a good freeze tonight. I think we're locked in until Tuesday and even then I'm thinking the morning doesn't look good.

Monday morning is projected to be around 13 degrees, cold as I've seen it here. The wind chill at that time is negative 1. It only gets better from there but there is enough freezing that there will be patchy ice through at least Wednesday. And really the rest of the week has below freezing in the schedule so driving is going to be dicey until next weekend.

And, of course, we've got things scheduled every day this coming week. Med visits daily. Pickleball three days. Volunteer work. It will be minute by minute decision of go or no go.

But it starts with PB tomorrow and that is not looking good.

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